Needing Food Is Inconvenient

Most of the time, I look at eating as an inconvenience. An expensive, fattening inconvenience.

I will be doing things that actually matter, like playing The Sims 3, and I will go hours and hours without even thinking about food. Then! Out of nowhere, my stomach feels like it's being pushed in at both sides, and someone is pouring acid down it.

Apparently my body doesn't like to feel a little hungry. It is either perfectly content or DYING OF EMPTINESS.

In addition to this being unhealthy, because bodies need food, obviously, it makes me fat.

My poor tummy is worried that it's not going to get food again for another 24 hours, so it holds on to that poptart, or that piece of pizza. And that is bad.

The reason I eat things like poptarts and pizza is that they are easily accessible, and poptarts can last for a really, really lost time. Since I forget to eat, and I often forget the produce that I bought even exists, I need food that takes longer than two days to expire. There have been many times when I buy bananas, forget about them, and am very disappointed when I find them rotting on my shelf four days later when I remember to eat.


Sometimes, though, I don't feel hungry at all.

Today, I woke up at 11 AM and hurried to get dressed so I could rush to the hospital to help my sister and her fiance go home with their baby. I had to leave thirty minutes after I woke up, because they were supposed to be discharged at noon, so I wasn't going to eat anything. However! I've been staying at my mom's house, and she is fantastic at making sure no one dies of starvation. She made a smoothie for me in three minutes, and was even making me cinnamon toast, until I told her that the texture of bread makes me throw up if I eat it right after I wake up.

It wasn't until about 6 PM that I realized I hadn't eaten anything all day. I left my sister's apartment, came back to my mom's and ate a sandwich. 

The point is, I wasn't even hungry. I did drink a couple cups of soda, though, so I wonder if my body is able to live off of caffeine, high fructose corn syrup, and strawberries for almost a whole day. And I think all I ate yesterday was a sandwich at about 10 PM, and I only ate that because I saw my mom eating a sandwich and I thought Oh hey, I haven't eaten today....

I probably won't eat again until tomorrow afternoon, when my mom scolds me for not eating anything today, Haley, Gawd!


Weird things like this make me think I'm dying.